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I’m very disappointed today after knowing that my birthday and graduation gift will not come into reality. Causes? again financial problem.

I understand that it’s hard to earn and budget money but she promised. I waited for almost 3 months to have this gift. Then suddenly, I became aware that I waited for nothing. I didn’t ask for a graduation gift but she insisted it. When my graduation came, she asked me if it is okay that my graduation gift will be given on my birthday and it will be my birthday and graduation gift. I answered yes because I understand our situation that time. After few months my birthday came, but she told me: “Not this time” because we have a financial problem. Then now, she told me that she cannot give my birthday and graduation gift due to financial problem again.

I can understand that but the point here is her promise. I trusted her. If she thinks it will be difficult for her to provide this gift, it will be better if she said to me frankly that she cannot afford it at the moment that I first asked for it.

Lessons learned: Don’t make promises that you cannot stand for and if someone promised you something, don’t give your 100% trust so that you will not be hurt when the time came that this promise was broken

Nurse only!

Last night, I told my mother that after I passed the board exam I will take an APCN (Advance Practice Clinical Nurse) course at Philippine General Hospital to enhance my nursing skills. My father told me to apply also in Pinoy MD scholarship so that I can be a doctor. My mother told my father to don’t push me to medicine because I decided already to enhance my chosen profession. After that talk, my mother went to their room but my argument with my father continued.

He asked me why I don’t want to proceed to medicine. I responded that i don’t want to continue medicine because I think doctor’s life is more stressful than nurse’s life. Nurse’s duty last only for 8 hours while doctor’s duty is 24 hours. Nurse’s duty will be favorable to me because I think I could use the free time to the things I want to do aside from taking care the sick people. Then he told me “Doctors only prescribed medicines while nurses are burden with hospital works and just follow the doctor’s order.” I think he has some points but I replied: “Doctors not only prescribe medicines but they also do certain work in the hospital. It’s a common misconception that nurses are always dependent to doctors (maid in the hospitals) but the truth is nurses are independent. They can question the orders of doctors if they are not confident to follow the order.”

He quickly responded that maybe in the Philippines it is applicable but in USA it’s not. The doctor might tell the nurse “Why don’t you be the doctor here? I am the doctor so follow my order!”.

I replied with confident that it’s the nurse right to question the doctor’s order because if there something happened bad to the patient, the nurse will also be liable. It’s the nurse right to protect the patient and his/her own license.

Then, I was surprised by his reply: “Okay fine, If you want to be a nurse only.”, so I responded: “Nurse only?”. Then he defended his response: “Nurses just take care of sick people. They cannot prescribe medicines to heal people. They even cannot put up their own clinic.”

Still in moderate and calm voice, I replied that nurses really cannot prescribe medicines because it’s not our job but nurses can put up their own clinic. Even without a master or specialization, we can set up clinic if we are licensed. He replied: “Well, nurses can put up clinics but they can only do is to take vital signs and take blood pressure.” Then I responded that nurse can do health teachings too and do nursing procedures.

He wants to tell more about his point of view to nurses but our very long argument was interrupted by an angry voice of my mother, who is also a nurse. She told my father that don’t tell “nurse only” because it is my chosen profession. If he want medicine then he study medicine.

After that, our house was filled with silence. I realized that in four years that he financed my BSN, he thinks nursing is a low profession. It really hurts. Well, that’s not the first case I heard downing my profession. While having our hospital duty, when I was still a senior student, my group mate reported to our instructor that the watcher of her patient told her: “Ah, cleaning patient’s butt is the only job of nurses! hahaha!”.

I cannot blame them because they don’t know how difficult to obtain a BSN degree and passing the board exam. Here in the Philippines, people look doctors as superior and boss while they look nurses as maids/assistant of doctors. I think the big population of nurses that are unemployed or underemployed also affects the view to the nursing profession.

It’s my childhood dream to be a doctor and having a free education to medicine is a great opportunity so i don’t close my door for medicine. However, I think nothing beats the holistic care of nurses to the patients and I think nurses should be treated equally with the doctors.

Be proud!

Last night, I was looking at my community tax receipt “cedula”; looking at the beautiful hand writing of the city treasurer and looking at my thumb mark. Suddenly, I realized, how beautiful my thumb mark is. It has marks that is unique in the whole world. I feel happy after I realized that I am unique and no one can replace me in the world. I have a unique DNA composition, unique looks and unique personality. I have different experiences from other people and I have talents and skills that others don’t have.

It’s an eye opener that showed me that I should not compare myself to other people and envy those talents and looks that other people have. I, myself, was given a unique looks and talents that I must improve in order to help other people.

This realization also reminds me that our purpose of living is to help one another, be productive and to improve the quality of life here on Earth. We don’t exist just to indulge ourselves to everything that pleasures us.

I’m not as strong and tall like other guys but I have intelligence, talents, love and care that other guys might don’t have. It is not in the look, it’s about how you handle yourself, and how you love and care for your special ones.

So, if you’re upset and feeling down, just look at your thumb mark to see the uniqueness that God given to you! You are unique that makes you special to God so be proud!

So sick T_T

I’m not supposed to open my computer today but I did because this is my only outlet for my feelings….

Huhuhu.. mg one month na akong umiinom ng prescribed antibiotics pero hndi pa rin ako gmagaling at abnomal p rin ang lab result ko. Ngpaconsult ulit ako knina sabi ng doctor hayaan ko na lang  dw at mawawala rin ang irregularities sa lab test in time. Medyo matagal nga lang… as long daw na wala akong serious signs and symptoms na nararamdaman eh nothing to worry. Hays.. cno ba naman di mgwoworry na more than one month ng abnormal lab results hahahayz… di ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Am I underdiagnosed or what? baka mgulat na lng ako sa future na may chronic disease na pla ako hayyzzz…

Inasikaso ko na rin pla knina yung passport ID ko kasi sayang naman ang lakad ko sa bayan, after “hearing mo na lng yan”. Ngpunta ako sa paborito kong photo studio tpos dun my nkatabi akong mgsyota… at eto nanaman ang lolo nyong namatay sa inggit hahah.. pero pareho silang babae. Tomboy yung isa at kung iisipin mo mas may itsura nman ako dun pero my GF siya ako wala hahha… Napag icp2x ko 2loy bat di ako tumulad sa iba na makipagchat sa YM oh makipagtextmate pra mkahanap ng GF. Pero super tamad talaga ako.. mdalas nauubusan ako ng topic kapag nkkpagtx (expenses pa sa load) tpos super mahiyain naman ako lalo na pg my webcam na tipong kapag nkatutok na sakin yung camera ay iniilagan ko hahah… di ko tlga alam…

Ang gulo ko noh, gusto kong mgkGF pero ayoko manligaw…Ano ba hanap ko instant? hahah Yung parang pggusto ko nang mg asawa , lalapitan ko ang babae at sabihing pakasal na tayo haha… as if kaya ko. Ewan ko parang msyadong down tingin ko sa sarili ko feeling ko ang hina2x ko at super lampa (parang totoo nman). Yung prang strength and protection na hinahanap ng mga babae ay di ko maibibigay. Ahaha too much of downing myself…nagkakasala nnman ako. Pero yun nga parang sa four years na ngcollege ako wlang nagkagusto sa akin T_T

Ang mga kaibigan ko na babae lang ang ngsasabi na gwapo raw ako  pati yung mga tga community:yung mga nsalubong kong bata cnbihan akong “ang pogi mo kuya” hahaha tuwang tuwa talaga ako nung araw na iyon haha.. “,

Isipin ko okay na rin ito kesa sa mamoblema ng kakainin sa png araw2x at masisilungan. Mas maraming tao ang may mas mabigat na problema kumpara sa mga problemang nararanasan ko.

P.S. feeling ko tuloy may taning na ang buhay ko… sna nman maaccomplished ko muna ang mga goal at purpose ko dito sa Earth at sana when the time comes eh maaccept ako ni God sa heaven ^_^

Di na n2loy ang daily blog ko…super natamad nnman kc ako…ngaun nga tamad ako mgblog pro pinilit ko tlga mgblog bka kc mkalimutan ko na e2. Feeling ko tlga my early signs of alzheimer’s disease na ako…kc sobrang makkalimutin na ko tpos laging absent minded pa…

Ngayon syempre ngsimba ako. Kakaibang nagyari? hmmm… yung katabi ko sa simbahan kakaiba… may malaria (bad air) habang kumakanta sa simbahan biglang nangamoy na panis na laway. Eh sobrang lakas pa nman ng pang amoy ko kya un mejo naduduwal na ako pro pinipigilan ko lang. Di ko na lng binubuka ang bibig ko pra less ang mapasok sa lungs ko na msamang amoy. Di rin ako mkatakip ng ilong ndhil nkkaoffend un. nkatingin n lng ako sa kisame ng cathedral habang kumakanta. Mejo nkahalata nga ata kya di n msyadong kumakanta pro sobrang lakas tlga talo pa ang pabango ko. Feeling ko 2loy ngkksala ako nung time na un. Pro mabaho tlga at khit cno nman cguro ayaw ng mbaho. Ginawa ko naman ang best ko pra di cia maoffend. (naimagine ko na bigyan ko cia ng candy na mint kso bawal nga pla sa simbahan kumain, naimagine ko rin na bigyan cia ng toothbrush kso wla nmang lababo doon hehe)

Eh pgsa simbahan di ko tinitingnan yung katabi ko dahil sobrang mahiyain ako. Nasisilayan ko lng ang pgmumukha nila kapg “peace be with you” na… aun pghrap ko sobrang gandang babae…kso syang  bad breath… X_x

Nkita ko rin pla sa simbahan yung high school classmate ko c Roxan.., mga 2 tao lng pagitan nmin sa seat.

Goodbye to adolescence? huhu nkklungkot mang isipin ngunit young adult na ako at di na ako bata… pro considered p rin akong youth ^_^ kc up to 35 years old ang youth heheh…

Changes… nsa utak ko p lng at di ko pa naiimplement..at sna machieve ko yung goal ko..tgal ko n kcng plano yun.. pro di na22loy…

Still single? grabe nga mkareact mga kmag anak ko pti yung plantsadora nmin nung malamang la pa ako GF. Di ko nman gs2ng wlang makarelasyon kso gaya nga ng sabi nila di n22ruan ang puso.. Di ko nman pde sbihin sa puso ko.. gs2 kong mgkGF kya manligaw ako ng khit cno… Ska ilang beses na kya ako nabasted pro di p nman cguro lalampas ng 10. Cguro kc di ako mkulit.. pg feeling ko di ako gs2 di ko n pgpplitan yung sarili ko… naiicp ko lng bka d tlga cia ang pra skin. Khit ppno my n22nan  nman ako dun.. at lahat cla kaibigan ko p rin ngaun. Ska cguro isang factor din ang sobrang pgkatamad kong mgtx… once in a bluemoon lng ako mkpgtxm8 at mg unli or altx.., nggs2san kc ako sa load ska ms gs2 ko nkkausap ko ng personal. Di pa tlga e2 ang panahon… pro ayoko tlgang tumandang binata…I want to build my own family ^_^ Cguro ngayon focus muna ako sa other things.

5 days to go…

I thank God because I was able to get my license weeeeeeeeeeeee! It’s my first time to have an LTO license card because my first “supposed to be” license card was not created by LTO until my license expired…. very snail system. Renewing your license at LTO now is easier compare than before and the officers there are very polite and keep on updating the people on the processes unlike before that some of them are monsters ^,..,^ Another improvement is that you can now get your license card in just 1 or 2 days unlike before than it will take months (and for me never because my license got expired but still the card is not available) before you can claim your license card. Today also is the street dancing competition in the Baragatan Festival but since I’m too busy processing my license, I was not able to watch it T_T

6 days to go…

Zzzz… I feel sleepy right now…It is already 11pm and I need to wake up at 6 in the morning to meet my teacher to check my cases T_T. I hope it will be settled.

After a long wait, I’ve already seen the 12th episode of full metal alchemist brotherhood but it is a raw version (no english sub), so I relied only to my observation to understand the episode. I wish I can understand Japanese but according to our prof in Asian Civilization, Japanese is more difficult to learn than Mandarin. T_T (Learning chinese seems difficult for me)

Today, I also met my childhood playmate together with his girlfriend who is very beautiful ^_^. Well, for me, I’m still waiting for God’s gift for me.

7 days to go…

At last I got my cases but I still have a problem about it and it needed to be verified to my clinical instructor..

well what’s up today? It’s FATHER’S DAY!!!!!!!

Like what I always do, I gave my father a present but this time it includes a letter. Yes, for the first time I wrote him a letter. I just want to thank him for being my father and to express myself. After I gave him his present, I went to my room quickly because I’m very nervous what will be his reaction after reading the letter. Will he beat me for the first time or will he say bad words? Luckily none of these happened. Then we ate together and  he asked me where and what kind of birthday celebration I want next week. I answered it with a low tone voice while avoiding to look at him. I’m still very nervous that time. What I observed is that he became more concerned to me and I hope it will not fade out.

8 days to go….

huhu, i have a sore throat…. For sure I will lose weight again…then a series of antibiotic intake again T_T so sick…

I later noticed that the date here in the blog was late so I decided to just post at night instead of morning.

Hmmm… what can I share today? I’m addicted to Full Metal Alchemist again…

reflection? it reminds me again of the Law of Equivalent Trade that in order to gain something, you must sacrifice other things on the same value. I think the first version is still the best compared to the remake based on the manga. I can’t wait to finish this version but episode 12 is not yet available…

hmmm…

I quitted playing flyff and pokemon firered. I think my ID was full by playing those computer games. I’m now fond of answering quizzez on facebook, reading blogs, and watching anime.  I think, I discovered my new hobby? Making a series review hahah…. but I must prepare myself first for the upcoming board on november. I hope I can pass that exam and to be a RN ^_^

9 days to go…

So i will try to update my blog everyday until my birthday! ^_^
Now, I don’t know what topic should I tackle about. I have many ideas that popped up in my mind yesterday but now all of these gone in a snap.

Maybe I can talk about the current issues in the world. I was shocked when I learned that David Archuleta’s father was caught in a massage parlor and was arrested because of buying prostitute. It’s such a shame for a son to learn that his respected father did this. I think the world is getting worst. Premarital sex is common, contraceptives are encouraged, broken families increases, multiple sex partners for men are allowable, sex scandals continuously spread, abortion cases also increases, respect for elders and women decline gradually.

Because of this, I realized that it’s hard to raise a child in this generation and it let me think that I must monitor my future sons and daughters well to protect them from these influences.

Now for my own reflection, I started to feel what path should I go. I realized that I must stick to my childhood dream job. But there are many things that should be considered and I ask God to give me signs to whether I will pursue into a new profession or enrich and master my chosen profession.

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